(10pm) I have only been awake eight hours, but I am getting sleepy. (I suppose I am using sleep as an escape. (Tis pretty much fun and fits my budget.)-(I am more likely to find a girlfriend in my dreams than sitting here alone.))
I am skipping r-rated and romance movies again next month. (Stick with comedy!)
Tis depressing that work is coming around again!
The people downstairs are bouncing off the walls.
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(1am) Sleep is being elusive and the people downstairs are still making a lot of noise. (Annoying!)
(7am) I finally slept some.
I could successfully argue that my shyness, poverty and sexual aversion aren’t totally my fault, but pointing fingers at other people is useless. (Ultimately, they are my problem and I have to untangle them! (It will take a woman who is willing to accept my phobias and help me finish breaking them, to overcome the sexual aversion; but I will have to take the steps leading up to being social, before I will meet anyone and spend the years it takes to build friendships.)) (Oh well, all that is going to take years to untangle, and the first step is solving the money shortage so I can get out and do things where people are.)
(5pm) Twas a busy day!
(8pm) Pretty good workout! (There was a crowd tonite and it took 20 minutes longer than normal.) (My repetitions were up. (Neat!)) (I checked my weight and I have gained another seven pounds. (Depressing!))
(9pm) Charlotte stopped by and got her tax returns.
It sounds like there is a big storm coming.
I haven’t written to anyone in a long time.
I think a relationship with someone like myself would be boring. (And, I wouldn’t learn as much.) (I need to find someone who will push me to new experiences and dimensions! (And, someone I can help!))
(10pm) Time for dreamland!
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(5pm) Busy day!
Tis cold!
(9pm) Now the wind is coming up. (Yech!)