Also, it sounds like Miranda and Danny visited with a counselor. (Good for them!)
(9pm) I caught a nice buzz!
(10pm) Time for sleep!
1-14-88
(9am) I slept eleven hours.
(Noon) The trip to the vet was interesting. (She freaked out in the truck and pissed down the back of my shirt on the way home.) (She was real mellow at the vet’s.) (All in all it wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be.)
(1pm) Now tis laundry time.
I wish I could get back all the books I have lost over the years! (My ex threw out a bunch during her Jehovah’s Witness phase, 100’s were given to Goodwill when I moved to Montana because there wasn’t room in the truck, and 100’s more were lost in the divorce.)
Someday I will have to deal with my phobias, but now isn’t the time. I think I will go off of these pills, until I can afford to work on going out. (It would be nice to take a pill and make the anxiety go away.)-(So far these haven’t seemed to make much difference, except for causing me to sleep too much. (It isn’t really fair to judge them based on this experience though. The therapy requires coupling the pills with actively working on exposing oneself to the anxiety provoking situations, and I can’t afford that part now.))
I am still not able to watch r-rated or romantic movies. (I get horny enough without any reminders!)
(4pm) Chores are done. (Yeah!)
I tried to find the stuff I needed for the grow room, but the nurseries were closed.
(8pm) I ate three x-tops.
(10pm) I finished off the JD I got before Xmas and the rest of the cocaine (Nice buzz!)
I made some more tapes for friends. (I love giving and doing things to make the lives of others more pleasant!)
Twas interesting listening to Roy Orbison’s stuff again! (His music is from a period in my life that I have blacked out. (I didn’t remember him, but I could sing along with all his songs the first time I played them.)-(Tis nice rediscovering his songs!)) (Tis sad he died!)
I have got to get into my health program! (My goal is to exercise more regularly and lose some weight.)
The craving for cigs is stronger again this week! (Once the symptoms of smoking disappear, I tend to forget what a drain they are on my physical health.) (Until I can afford a social life, there isn’t any social advantage to not smoking.) (Right now the only real motivation is money.)