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(4am) D O woke me up be attacking my feet. (She gets in some weird moods at some weird times.)-(I suppose it’s good practice. (In order to be around people I will have to learn to deal with annoying habits. (After my ex, my tendency is to run away at any sign of disagreement, jealousy, …; and that isn’t realistic. Every relationship will have some negative aspects and times; and it’s only when it’s constant that it isn’t healthy and time to run away.))-(I have lots to learn to become someone who will make a woman happy, who is able to make a commitment, and who can build a relationship.))
(5pm) Busy day!
(8pm) Nice workout!
Erica was here when I got home and we visited a bit. (Neat!)
Tis nice that there is at least one person who accepts and likes me, and is willing to stop by and say hi!
She is bugging me to start going out now. (I am not going to go out broke!) (It will come around in time!) (I don’t mind paying for my kids! (I get sad, lonely and horny sometimes, but now is mostly nice and it’s worth the sacrifice!))
(9pm) Erica is right that my meals are blasé. (The only thing that is positive about them is that they are cheap and easy. (I am a poor and lazy cook!))
Beth says the two women who just got divorced keep taking her to lunch. (She says she is getting really tired of it, because all they do is talk about what jerks men are. (They have a lot of anger to work through!))
Time is going quickly for me! (Nice!)-(Tis sad to wish my life away, but I have to pay off my past mistakes before I can return to living life again.)-(Keep busy, keep learning, and try to do something constructive with my prison time, and this time will be over before I know it!)
(10pm) Tiredness!
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(5pm) Busy day!
(11pm) Time for dreamland!
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(7am) TGIF!
(6pm) Erica popped in for a minute. (Neat!)
She says Jim got a job at the Fire Department. (Good for him!)