One advantage of poverty is, if I did find a girlfriend, I would know she was with me for me, not money.
Next time I do have some extra money I think I will spend it on the kitchen.
(10pm) "Fatal attraction" is pretty bizarre! (She reminds me of my ex! (More sex and pain!)) (I don’t think the problem in that story is that she was aggressive.) (I would be lost without aggressive women!) (Affairs can get real messy!)
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(7am) TGI payday!
"Struggle for intimacy" was interesting, but pretty much useless to me now. It presupposes that the reader has a relationship they need help with, and I am not even close. (It will be years before I can afford to go out, and it will take years after that to build friendships.) (If I ever get there, I will have to reread that book.)
(5pm) Busy day!
I am still letting D O out, unless it’s windy. (She likes it and it doesn’t cool things off too much.)
I can’t afford a haircut this paycheck. (The joys of poverty!)
(8pm) Nice workout!
(9pm) Tis nice when my women friends stop by! (Those are the times that make all the rest bearable!)-(Stolen moments with friends are what life is all about!) (Such a lucky fellow!) (Until poverty passes, that is going to be my social life.)
Erica says Henry is getting serious about the woman he has been dating. (Tis a very small percent of relationships that form right after divorce that survive. (The person is bitter and has a lot to work through. (Usually they take it out on the new mate and destroy that relationship; and then the person ends up with two broken dreams to work through.)))-(The other possibility, still, is that relationship has been going on for some time and isn’t a rebound situation.)
If one truly loves someone, they must be willing to let them go. (Tis sad and hard to do though!) (e.g., Cat Stevens’ "Wild world")
Maybe it’s time to move on. Maybe it’s time to heal. Maybe it’s time to work off the anger and pain. Maybe it’s time to get numb and forget. Maybe it’s time for all that and a lot more. (Tis for you to explore and unfold for yourself!) (As Gandhi said, "Each nite I die and each morning I am reborn.")
I love my time of solitude now! (Tis fun discovering myself and doing things for me!)