I hope she stays away from Ashley for awhile! (Someone like that is liable to do anything and she doesn’t need any more grief now!) (Tis time to let things cool down and start healing, not stir things up even more.)
Wallowing in the details of affairs just increases and prolongs the pain! (Healing won’t begin until everyone lets go of the past and focuses on today!)
(9pm) Tiredness!
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(6am) Hopefully Erica starts sleeping again soon!
She says one of the things that really pissed off Ashley is that the affair was going on while she was pg. (They weren’t even close to an idyllic couple, and he was in it only because she got pg to trap him. (And, at that time, he was still married to someone else who was pg with some other fellow’s kid.)) (That was about the time I stopped going to Corky’s, and I can remember Dell telling me he was fucking half the town at that time.) (Tis ancient history and it’s time to let it all go and move on!)
She is also still obsessing on her weight. (She already looks great, so I don’t have a clue why she is worrying about that!)
(7am) I am a little nervous about the doctor’s appointment. (I suppose I am always nervous about something. (How tiresome!))
The guy who wrote "Nice guys sleep alone" is on VH1 a lot. (I will have to read that book one of these days!) (In the latest bit he says he is into gardening and cooking now. (He says eventually one asks oneself why they are staying up all nite, can’t answer the question, and then moves on to other things. (I can relate! (At the time I couldn’t imagine anything but living in bars. Now I can’t really understand why. (I guess it was a part of the healing process.))-(Now I like to do different, simpler and quieter things.)))
(5pm) I spent most of the day in the computer room doing data entry again. (Boring and loud!) (Oh well, I am getting closer to being done with that task!)
I have to go to the Parks Department tomorrow and help them some more with computer problems. (It will be nice to do something different!)
The doctor drew more blood. (I should know next week if it was cigs that caused the problem. (Hopefully quitting cured that problem!))
(7pm) I went to the store and got the pills for anxiety attacks that the doctor prescribed.
(9pm) Tiredness!
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(6am) TGI payday!
I didn’t make it to the Club again. (Try again tomorrow.)