Let’s see, quitting cigs seems to be easier than giving up sex after my divorce. Tis harder than losing the bulk of my weight was.
(Noon) Erica and Miranda stopped by for a bit. (Neat!)
Miranda needed the coffee table back, so I helped her carry it down to the car. (Twas nice having something different for awhile.)
It sounds like her family is getting along better than they have in years. (Good for them!)
I watched "Innerspace". (Cute!)
(4pm) Quiet afternoon of reading so far. (Nice!)
(6pm) I couldn’t get into dinner again. (I wonder if my appetite is off or am I now able to taste my own cooking?)
A few of the seeds have sprouted.
The weekend went too fast!
I got the boxes and board out, and set up my old coffee table again. (This works fine!)
I have been making up more tapes for the truck. (Someday I will have to go on a road trip and use them.)
I am rarely bored! (I have gotten real good at entertaining myself and I am easy to please.) (Maybe I don’t know what happiness is, but at least I am rarely unhappy!)
(9pm) Tiredness!
10-3-88
(5am) Well, I made it through another weekend without going out, except for laundry. (I am so damned worthless, except for work!) (I wanted to at least go for a walk each day.)-(I can live with the fear keeping me out of bars, but I don’t understand why I fear going for a walk.)-(This is so frustrating!)
I am not in the mood for work today! (Maybe it’s the fear that is getting in the way?)
(6am) I wonder if I will ever get my shit together?
(7am) Nice workout! (I am glad I could make it to the Club!)
I can’t blame women for being turned off by my fear! (It makes me very ugly!)
(5pm) Busy day!
I didn’t talk to anyone again today. (Just go in and do my job, and then come home.)
I walked four miles at lunch again.