I got real burned out on crowds, during the Paw nites! (Eventually, I am going to have to get back into that grind and try to meet people.)
It will be nice getting home grown pot! (Tis getting to be a real pain finding it anymore.)
I ate three x-tops. (Stay up later, at least one nite.)
I have backslid in a lot of ways. (It just isn’t my time for going out.)
I haven’t seen Linda in a long time to ask her about a haircut. (Maybe Paul is using Erica and Henry’s break up to rationalize spending a lot of time together? (People need time together and time apart, to grow. (His jealousy is going to suffocate her and use up all the magic they have!)))
I am out of cigs. (Try again!) (One advantage of getting worried about my health is I started trying to quit again! (I need to deal with that!)-(Not being successful at quitting, so far, has got me a bit pissed at myself!)) (Part of being a friend to myself, I think, is quitting cigs.)
Another plus of worrying about my health is it got me to write down what should be done when I check out.
Another way to replace the physical stimulation cigs provides is to write more. (Keep my hands busy!) (Maybe I am putting myself down again as a replacement for the obnoxiousness of cigs? (Eventually I have to stop pushing people away and substituting other things for human contact.))
Well, I wonder how Beth and Mary’s dinner party is going? (I hope they have a fun time!) (I hope they forget all about me!)
Erica was trying to get a loan so she can fix her car. (Hopefully that works out!)
She has been in a kind of dark mood the last couple days. (Sad!)
I enjoy growing things, and I hope I have a garden again someday! (That will be another nice aspect of setting up a grow room!)
I have a stack of reading piled up again. (I have got to find some energy!)
(11pm) Erica, Charlotte and Gwynn stopped by and caught a buzz with me. (Neat!)
Tis a pretty nite out and the moon is beautiful!
I definitely caught a buzz tonite! (Nicest feeling I have had in awhile!)
Tis a nice change to spend some time with people and stay up late! (Times like this make all the rest bearable!)
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(9am) I feel mostly good. (A little headache, but tis a small price to pay!)
I fell asleep on my chair around midnite and didn’t wake up and move to the bed until 3am.