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(6am) I feel good!
I am going to try to play volleyball Monday nite. (People at work have been bugging me a lot about that.) (It means seeing Sharon though.)
(7am) I let D O out.
(8am) Here is an interesting quote:
Nikki Giovanni – "There is always something
to do. There are hungry people to feed, naked people to clothe, sick people to comfort and
make well. And while I don’t expect you to save the world I do think it isn’t
asking too much for you to love those with whom you sleep, share the happiness of those
whom you call friend, engage those among you who are visionary and remove from your life
those who offer you depression, despair and disrespect."
(11am) Nice morning of music and reading.
D O stopped by for a minute and sat on my lap. (She must be over being mad at me.)
(9pm) I spend the rest of today helping Erica to move into the new place. (It feels good to help others!) (Great workout!)
(10pm) I did some chores and then I took a nice long hot bath. (Nice!)
Now I think I will listen to music, watch the x-rated video, and see how percodan effects my sex drive. (The sacrifices I make in the name of research!)
(11pm) Well I was less sensitive and it took a half-hour longer than normal to get off.
I thought I did better today about not girl watching, but I did slip a few times.
I grabbed a stack of dresser drawers and headed up the stairs with them. I looked down and looking up at me was Erica’s vibrator. (Those can be a lot of fun!)-(It wasn’t one of my ex’s favorite things, but she would bring hers out now and then, and we would play with it.)-(We made love a lot, and tried lots of different variations!)
Miranda made a comment that made me wonder is she still perceived me as someone who is depressed a lot. (Maybe that still is the perception of others, but it isn’t my reality now.) (I will have to try and work on sounding happy to others, because I am most of the time.)
It sounds like Erica has finally started talking to people about her problems. (Good!)
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(Midnite) Tiredness!
I feel good though!
I will sleep well tonite!