Erica is still denying she is upset. (People have to listen to themselves and accept their humanness.) (The longer one denies, the longer it takes to heal.)
D O woke me up once last nite for some petting. (Cute!)
My toes have started getting numb when I walk. (Scary!)
I am trying to get psyched up to quit cigs again.
(9pm) D O finally showed up. (She hasn’t stayed out late in awhile.)
(10pm) Tiredness!
I watched part of "Birds do it, bees do it". (Cute!) (I feel less bad about getting horny! (Tis just part of being human!))
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(7am) The birthday card I sent to Carrie came back marked non-forwardable, so she must have moved again. (Oh well!)
Someday I will have to learn other ways to play besides sex! (I am going to need to learn other ways to play, in order to find a lover.)
TGIF!
TGI a three day weekend!
(10pm) Erica called and I met her and Miranda at the Rhino after work. (Neat!)
I tried not to girl watch. (Instead I tried to just look at women’s eyes.) (That is pleasant too!)
I am glad I am back to paying my ex! (I have got an obligation and I need to take care of it!) (I am used to poverty and I will be fine!)
I am not ready to live with someone now, but a lover would be wonderful! (And, that is the next step towards being ready to live with someone.)
D O seems a little unhappy with me for not coming home and letting her out, but I can’t feel too sorry for her. (I almost always do make it home, and she will get out early the next three days.)
Hopefully someday I will get over my phobia enough and get back into going places alone. (I should be out riding my bike, but I can’t even make it out to go for a walk on the weekends. (I keep withdrawing further into myself.))
Finding smoke sure is a pain! (Time to grow my own and forget that hassle!)
(11pm) When I flipped on the tv when I got home, it was the same spot in the same movie I turned off when I left for work this morning. (Weird but neat!)
D O is having fun chasing flies and moths! (Cute!)