5-16-88
(5am) Monday again. (Oh well!)
(7am) Nice workout!
I am in serious lust with one of the women who works out in the morning.
Tis weird I guess to only get close to women who have boyfriends and who find me undesirable. (It seems to take that though for me to relax enough to let someone close.) (The kinds of relationships I have with my women friends would make a good foundation for something more.)-(I think those relationships are good models, if I ever do overcome the phobias and I am able to let women close who do find me desirable.) (Oh well, my women friends have helped me much. (If I ever find a significant other it will be because those relationships!))
(5pm) Busy day!
Although a more serious relationship with Samantha wouldn’t work, our relationship was good for me. (She helped me to learn to enjoy the company of women.)-(And, to relax a bit around women I know well.)-(And, to accept that affairs aren’t that big-a-deal.) (Twas a good experience and she helped me to grow!)
I suppose I should get a haircut before going to Kansas.
(9pm) Norm and Maddie bugged me today to go and play volleyball tonite, so I went. (I ended up standing a long time watching, but they kept encouraging me and I finally joined in.)-(I played three games and enjoyed myself, once I got into it. (Nice!)) (Sharon was there with her new fellow. (She didn't talk to me.))
Erica likes Yahtzee so I will have to get that. (I bought scrabble because Samantha liked that game and I got cribbage because Hunter enjoyed that one.) (Another neat part of friends is learning new games! (There is so much I have never done!) (Tis really neat each time I can make myself try some new experience!))
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice!)
5-17-88
(7am) D O’s new trick is to lay at my feet and get me to rub her neck with my toes. (There are advantages to long toes.)
(5pm) Busy day!
The budget hearings are pretty boring, but I am getting a little practice talking in meetings. (The Mayor is being real cost conscious.)
The cat licensing hearing is next week. (They want to license all cats and throw them in the pound any time they leave their owner’s property. (I think that is a little unrealistic.))
(10pm) Erica stopped by for a visit. (Neat!)