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(3am) The Hat was sure packed!
I ran into Maddie when I first got there and bs’d with her a bit.
The crowd was older and there was quite a variety of people. (Neat!)
I finally got a seat at the bar about 20 minutes before the last set. Then my boss came up and invited me over to the table he was at. (I went over there and ended up with him, Maddie, Rosemary and her hubby for the last set. (Pretty strange!) (He got a table because he went real early and read until the music started.))
The music and girl watching were great! (There were even a few women wearing mini-skirts. (Yum!))
I ran into a guy I knew from the Bozeman bars (Artie) and bs’d with him for awhile.
The layout of the Hat is different, but somehow it seems pretty familiar.
The anxiety level was still way too hi for me to cope with asking anyone to dance! (Frustrating!)
I treated myself to breakfast at 4-b’s again. (Nice!)
D O is sitting on the table starring at my liter. (She is sure into them!)
I have already blown my party budget, so I will be staying home next weekend, unless I get paid for doing tax returns.
(9am) I feel good!
It looks like another beautiful morning. (Neat!)
(Noon) I got some tax work done.
I suppose all my excuses for staying home come back down to being excuses for avoiding the anxiety and pain that comes from being with people. (Tis what I need to do for therapy, but it’s often impossible for me to endure it all.)
(5pm) I wrote to my sister and to Samantha.
I finished frying the chicken and now I am starting on the roast.
(9pm) My cable went out again. (Boo!)
(10pm) It has been a quiet day. (Nice!)
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(5am) Monday morning again. (Boo!) (I am ready for a three-day weekend!)