The Treasurer says the Hat finalized all its licenses and is open. (Great!) (Saturday nite should be interesting. (And, packed.))
There was a good article on shyness in today’s newspaper. (Tis rooted in genetics and biochemistry to a large degree.)-(Despite that there are ways one can learn to cope and adjust, and come to terms the anxiety attacks.) (I think the anxiety attacks are the result of the body being flooded by chemicals at levels most don’t experience. (From what I have read the dosages are as much as 100 times normal.)-(That messes people up in whatever situation the chemical release is triggered.)-(The effect is a lot like a physical disability. (One loses the ability to think clearly as well as an associated loss of muscle control.)))
The newspaper is sure full of violence lately. (Sad!)
(6pm) I understand that putting myself in social settings is good therapy and that it’s the only way to become social, but it’s still hard to put myself in settings that induce anxiety attacks. (Tis painful!)-(How do I find the courage?)
(7pm) I had a nice chat with Rosemary today. (She works in Engineering.) (Nice, very cute and married.)
I haven’t seen a single movie that has been nominated for an Academy Award. (It has been a long time since I went out to the movies. (Oh well, wait for them to show up on cable.))
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice!)
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(11am) Quiet morning so far. (Nice!)
Now it’s laundry time again.
(3pm) Enough chores for today!
(7pm) I treated myself to pizza. (Yum!)
I have been nervous all day about going to the Hat tonite. (Annoying!)
I got Jake and Annie’s tax stuff in the mail today. (I will have to do their returns tomorrow.)
(8pm) I ate three x-tops.
(9pm) I am starting to wake up (I have been tired for the last four hours!), but I am still uptight about going out!
I did some stretching exercises. (Sometimes that helps.)
(10pm) I am even more uptight, but I have got to make myself go out.