From what Erica says Carrie is still pissed at me. (I wonder if it’s the same thing, or is she expanding the list?) (I can accept her being mad about the thing with Hunter, but why this long and intensely?) (Maybe it’s all the years of not bitching for fear of hurting my feelings, and now all of it is coming out all at once?) (Hopefully she will calm down in time!) (I miss her!)
Sharon says Chloe may be living with her longer than this school year. (She says that is ok, and that she is mostly content with their arrangement.)
Now she says her reason for not getting divorced is that it would mess up her hubby financially and she doesn’t want to hurt him. (Whatever!) (I don’t want to be more than fuck buddies, so it’s fine with me.) (Just about any sex life is therapeutic for me now and helps to break down the phobias.)
My phobias are a lot like being enclosed in a bubble. (I am overly sensitive and that makes the potential for suffering pain as the result of being with others greater than for most others.) (My psychological bubble keeps me from the potential harm.) (It also keeps me from the potential joy and I have to keep working on bursting it.)
Today will be hectic. (I hate chore day!)
I need to make a dent in this reading pile too.
And, I have another tax return to do. (Make a couple bucks.)
One of the lawyers at work has been giving me the eye lately. (She is interesting.)-(Pretty, quiet and she wears very conservative dresses all the time, but I sense she would be wild in bed.)
I have noticed some new growth on my houseplants and they seem a little happier lately. (They like the longer days too.)
It sounds like Lauren loves water and is looking forward to the arrival river floating season. (I would have to overcome a lot to be someone she would enjoy.)
I would be lost without writing. (Tis a nice way to replace companionship.)
The down side of Sharon masturbating while we talk on the phone is I have to carry the conversation. (She doesn't ask me to say anything sexual. She just wants me to talk to her.)-(Tis good practice for me, I guess.) (Tis weird though to hear her moans and heavy breathing while I am talking about work and whatever else I think of to talk about!)
(3am) I do enjoy Worden’s lunches. (Yum!)
(9am) I feel pretty good.
I woke up three times last nite to find D O lying on my chest. (Each time she wanted 10 to 15 minutes of petting.)-(She is getting friendlier.)
(Noon) I gave the truck a bath and now it’s laundry time.