(7pm) Erica stopped by and brought me some leftovers. (Very nice!)
Tis cute how D O gets excited and friendly when someone stops by.
(9pm) Sharon called and bs’d awhile.
She was playing with herself again as we talked. (She is going to take October off and go to Germany for Oktoberfest. (Good for her!))
She is worried about her daughter in Seattle. (She is frustrated because her daughter is staying in an addictive relationship. (Her hubby even chooses which tv shows she can watch. (I remember going through that. (What a pain!))))
Nikki hasn’t had her car much longer than I have had my truck, but she has 50,000 miles on it and I have driven under 5,000. (If it hadn’t been for that contract with Gallatin County, I would still be under 3,000 miles.)
(10pm) I ate four x-tops after Sharon’s call and got ready to go out.
I had a nice little chat with Lauren today. (I even started the conversation and kept it going. (Amazing!)) (I try not to girl watch much at work, but around her my eyes keep wandering. (Lust is neat sometimes, but it still scares me.))
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(2am) I had a severe anxiety attack just before I went out, but I did my breathing exercise and made it to the Down Under. (The music and girl watching were super!) (I didn’t see anyone I knew.) (Again, there was no one within ten years of my age.) (Again, I couldn’t find the whatever to overcome my shyness and make any first moves.) (At least I made it out of the apartment!)
Then I treated myself to breakfast at 4b’s. (Yum!)
Tonite I inhaled 25 cigs in four hours. (Another sign of anxiety attacks was the nine bourbon and diet cokes that I downed.)
I sure enjoy the new Natalie Cole album! (This time of day tis wonderful to hear a woman’s voice!)
Oh yes, Tuesday I was out of bread and didn’t want to buy more until after the trip, so I ate a bag of m & m’s for lunch in the break room. (Lauren’s comment was, "Young man, is that your lunch?" (I would guess we are about the same age, so why did she call me "young"?))
I was down in the Court helping one of the clerks (Beth) with a problem and the Judge told me that if I weren’t so ugly the women there would be after me. (I told him I am not only ugly; but also poor and shy, and it’s highly unlikely anyone will be interested.) (Beth is a cutie! (She is in her late 20’s, nice figure, she wears mini skirts and low cut blouses a lot, divorced, one daughter, hits the bars a lot, and she is funny.))
Sharon said she finally got some albums picked out for me to tape for her. (She was in bed though, so she said she would call me back with the list later.)