11-29-87
(8am) Carly wanted to know if I have gone through a religion phase yet. (I have been asked that a number of times.) (I told her about the years of going to the Kingdom Hall with my ex. (My ex assumed that if I didn't go there with her, I must be out fucking someone else, so I always had to tag along. (I would sit there quietly listening and thinking up counter points and laying out arguments to refute the lectures.))) (Carly said she went through hers when she shacked up for a couple years with an ex-minister who had been her religion professor in college. (She does seem to choose lovers who can help her in learning what she wants to know more about. (That is one way!))-(I wonder if I will ever find a student like that? (Oh well, I enjoy teaching others and I am happy to do it for nothing.)))
The flier for winter quarter at the VoTech was in today's newspaper. (Now to find some money. (The City will reimburse me once I complete the classes, but I have to come up with the money to get enrolled.)-(A new puzzle.))
I am going to have to get in gear and do some studying for this new job. (The first six months will require learning a lot of new stuff.) (After that it should get easier.)
Miranda commented that I would probably be too drained after work to study and write. (She could be right. (Accounting can be draining. (And, getting that focused into the analytical can get in the way of writing.))) (I wish I could support myself by writing, but I am stuck with accounting for now.)
According to MTV, some organization in NY is offering money to any woman who still has a hymen at 19. (They think that will solve the problems of teen pregnancy and Aids. (I think it would take a whole lot more money than they are talking about to subdue the human sex drive.))
(10am) Nice massage!
One big change this job brings is that this is the first place I have worked where I won't be able to smoke at my desk.
(11am) I treated myself to a couple cinnamon rolls. (Yum!) (I love cheap thrills!)
Maybe the biggest reason to view being social simply as a way to find friends and have fun is that going out to get laid or to find a mate leaves one open to lots of disappointment. (I spent a lot of time being sad because of celibacy, when I should have been happy about having such neat friends! (Such a fool!)
I ran out of pot Friday and just smoked the last of the resin I cleaned out of the pipes.
(2pm) Nice walk!
(9pm) Quiet day. (Nice!)
(10pm) Maybe I should avoid Carly? (She has been nice to me and sex would be nice, but I have heard enough negative things to make an affair with her questionable. (I need good experiences and women who won't use me or reinforce the pain - sex connection.) (?)) (There is still a part of me that is a sucker for anyone who is interested and willing, regardless of whether it's a sensible thing to do or not.)