In "Love me, love me not" they comment that betrayal ends the old relationship, and if two people are to stay together, they need to build a new relationship. (I still think that is all relevant to all sorts of relationships and betrayal.) (In our culture, there seems to be common perceptions regarding a lot of our relationships, and what the unwritten contract is in each situation.)-(In each instance, violation of those unwritten contracts requires that the contract be modified to fit the new relationship.)-(I think that fits in with the concept in "Open marriage" that a marriage contract needs to be one that is designed to change as the people change. (Isn't that true of all our relationships?)) (Interesting puzzle.)
I suppose I misinterpreted Carly's actions and words, and I will try to avoid that interpretation, unless she does or says something more concrete. (Keep my mind open and let experience define situations, rather than trying to guess or project past patterns onto the present. (Tis easier to say than do, but I will keep trying.))
(2pm) I got a letter from Carrie and she is mega-mad at me! (I still have a lot to learn about being a friend!)
(7pm) Erica stopped by and said hi. (Neat!)
I had thought that letter from Carrie might shut off my ability to write for awhile, but it didn't.
I had my first appointment with the shrink today. Mostly I just bs'd and painted some of the picture for him. I expressed my concern about addictive relationships and he says he will make me do most of the work myself.
Tis amazing to look back and realize I have "talked" to Erica almost daily now for almost four and a half years. (She read them in a moment, and sometimes didn't pay attention to what I was saying; but to me, she has always been there.) (Neat!)
Samantha called today and wished me a late happy birthday. (Twas nice hearing her voice!)-(She has brightened up my life so many times! (I don't think I could ever live with her, but I love her and she is a special part of my life!)) (She says that Jake and Annie have given up cocaine. (That is probably for the best. (They are addicts, and it would have destroyed their marriage in time.))-(I hope it works out for them. (They are super people, and I found a lot of fun times with them.)))
Some aspects I am lacking and need to develop next are some play aspects.
Thinking about the other nite, I don't think my habit of sitting in one spot at a party is so bad. (I ended up talking a little with everyone, over the course of the evening.) (I think though that my old habit of sitting off in a corner is bad, and I need to do like at my birthday party and find a spot in the middle of the action.)
I know when I misperceive something that it's usually a clue to what I am repressing, so misperception isn't without it's gifts, if I listen to myself.
Since I have started stretching before my Nautilus workouts, I have also gotten into it at other times. (e.g., it seems to help to do it before I go out.)