There seem to be a lot of small minded people who can't accept people who display a lot of different aspects, but I tend to ignore them. (They have lots of aspects too, and I would say their reactions tend to say more about what parts of themselves they are repressing, than anything else.) (When it comes time for me to look for a girlfriend, I will look for someone who displays a lot of different aspects. (My women friends all do; and although that has brought me a little pain, it was a small price to pay for all the beauty they brought to my life!) (There will be times when she brings me pain; but, I feel, I will grow more and be happier, long term, with someone like that.) (Carrie uses the term "blasé women". I am not exactly sure what she means; but I know that Carrie fascinates me, and the women I have met, who she has associated with that label bored me.) (And, I keep trying to work towards expressing more of my aspects, so it makes sense to me to look for a woman who is pursuing the same journey. (All I have to do to see that I have lots of aspects is to read my poetry.)) (And, I suppose my expressing lots of aspects will sometimes bring her pain too, and there will be aspects of me she will never comprehend; but maybe she could learn and grow from that.))
(8am) If Carrie really wants a long-term relationship, maybe she should take a hint from Erica and Samantha, and find someone like Henry and Leo? (The one thing I see in all three is that they exhibit a variety of different aspects; and I don't think one man could ever satisfy all of them.) (Since I seem to enjoy women who show a variety of aspects, I think I need to gain greater control of my feelings of jealousy, so I can build a relationship with someone who wouldn't bore the shit out of me! (And, according to the tv new the other nite, 70% of the women married longer than five years have had affairs and the average length of those affairs is four years; so coming to terms with jealousy is something most people should be doing!)) (One advantage of the jealousy Erica seems to trigger in me is I have noticed that I can accept that she has a few lovers and I am happy for her; but the trigger seems to be hearing or seeing about it. (The people I am close to seem to have the same need as I to flirt and dance with others sometimes, but maybe that aspect should be expressed only when one’s mate isn't around? Or should we learn to come to terms with jealousy, so that it isn’t triggered at all? (e.g., Erica and Samantha seem to avoid flirting around Henry and Leo, and take care of those needs when they are out without the guys. (That seems to work for them.) (On the other hand, Carrie flirted a lot when Hunter was around, and that caused a lot of problems.)))) (Another advantage I have gained from experiencing my own feelings of jealousy is that it has convinced me that telling lies is the way to go, and to avoid ever looking for problems.)
Oh yes, Sharon called the other nite and bs'd for an hour. (She still doesn't believe my celibacy story.)-(My women friends can't believe I have a sexual aspect.)-(Weird!)
I commented once to Erica, in a letter, about the reality that she spends a lot more time with her other men friends than with me. She got all defensive, and wrote back that she spends most of her time with Henry, her family, or alone. (One way to look at that is as a lie, but there is another way to look at it. (I think the aspects of her that enjoy me are pretty much the same one’s that enjoy Henry, her family, and alone; and, in terms of them, it isn’t a lie.)) (She has other aspects though, and they enjoy a different type man than me. (As she has said, she chooses the men she spends time with to fit her mood. (I think that is one of the biggest reasons that I let her choose when we will be together. (There are aspects of her that will cut me, and I would just as soon not be around when they are out.)))-(The same thing is true of all my women friends. (To love them means to accept all of their aspects and I do. (I think they should accept all their aspects too, and try to integrate them better. (e.g., I would say the reason Samantha reacts negatively towards other people who fuck around is that she doesn't truly accept that part of herself and it isn’t totally integrated into who she is most of the time. (I would think, if it was, she could access that part of herself when she sees it in others and accept them.))))))