(4pm) There are parts of life, which I can deal with and I am skilled at. (Tis from those strengths that I try to give to others.) (There are other aspects of life where I am frightened and unskilled, and at those times I am dependent on others and I take a lot from them. (Over time I hope that evens out, so that the give and take is pretty even.)) (I hope that, in time, I will be able to overcome my fears, and stop taking so much during playtime though. (It gets in the way of their fun.))
(5pm) Nice sun tanning session.
(6pm) I sure have gotten into ice cream this summer. (Yum.)
They have made it illegal here to not wear seat belts. (I always do, but my initial reaction to the law is to stop.)
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice.)
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(3pm) Nice workout.
(4pm) Erica stopped by and picked up my bike, to get it fixed for me. (That was sweet of her.)
(6pm) Nice sun tanning session.
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice.)
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(8am) I bs'd a bit with a woman shrink during soak and sweat time at the Club on Wednesday. (She says she has been feeling the urge to become a hermit for awhile. (She is getting burned out from all the time with people and their problems.)-(Interesting.)-(I think it comes back to needing to find harmony and a blend of time alone and time with others.) (And, I would guess the problem people in all professions have in common is that they have developed a highly complex model for analyzing one aspect of life, and it's hard to turn that off when work ends. (e.g., I know there are lots of moments in life when an analysis of the situation in terms of dollars and cents is inappropriate, but the accounting computer in my mind cranks out that answer anyway.) (Once one studies something and practices it for awhile, it eventually gets to the point where the unconscious is doing a lot of the work. (That is good, as the things we do consciously, we tend to not do well; but it's a problem when it keeps doing it at inappropriate times.)) (How does one turn work off? (Alcohol helps, and a lot of people use it; but it's got lots of drawbacks.)-(Sex works too; but requires having a lover whom is into sex after work on a regular basis.)-(When I did my Nautilus workouts after work last winter in Bozeman, that helped; but it had one of the negative side effects of alcohol, in that all I was up to was cooking, eating, and crashing in front of the tv set afterwards.)-(I wonder if some sort of recreational activity that wasn't as draining would work? (I tried a bowling league, but they made me the treasurer and so I ended up working then too.))-(One thing I want to try is taking some non-work related classes in the evenings.))))