I still think, ideally, that affairs shouldn't have such a severe impact on people's lives; but, given our society and human nature, it isn’t an idea that fits reality. (The vast majority of people are going to experience a lot of pain in coping with infidelity, and it will continue to trigger lots of divorces.) (I agree with them that one shouldn't look at affairs as an automatic divorce. (Sex is a way of communicating, and affairs are communicating some message about the relationship, most of the time. (In my case, affairs communicated that the marriage was over and was an excuse for leaving.) (In lots of cases, I think it's a message that the people need to adjust priorities so the spouse is higher up on the scale, to break bad patterns and signal a need to build new more constructive one’s, and to learn to communicate better (verbally and sexually).)) (As they say, affairs signal the death of the old relationship, but don't necessarily mean one can't build a new relationship with the same person.))
Since all my women friends have never been lovers, I don't see any reason for not being totally honest about those relationships, with any women who come into my life in the future. (If it hadn't been for all the love I have gotten from them, I wouldn't have progressed as much as I have; and if I ever find another girlfriend, it will be an outgrowth of that love.) (They are all a major part of my life. (To have to hide them from women I meet would be a bad way to start new relationships.)) (Oh well, that is another problem for the future, and isn't something I need to concern myself with for now!)
(3pm) Nice workout. (Switching my meals to the morning has improved my workouts.)
Erica stopped by while I was at the Club and left another letter for me. (Nice!)-(I would be lost without her influence in my life!)
She says my habit of telling people so much about myself so fast is part of why I turn them off and isn't appropriate. (I think she is probably right, and if I were truly ready for letting people into my life I would have to stop that. (I think what I am saying by dumping all the bad shit on the table, right away, is "You don't want to get to know me." (I don't do it consciously, but that is the message I am conveying.))) (Sales revolves around creating an illusion of all good qualities. (I create the illusion that I am worthless.) (The principle of seduction, as defined in marketing, is to tell people what they want to hear. (I don't do that, and seem to go out of my way to tell people what they don't want to hear. (What is it they do want to hear though?) (As a result few people get to know me well enough to discover that there are good aspects to me.))))
The new Prince tune would be fun to dance to. (He has sure written a lot of good dance tunes!)
(6pm) Nice sun tanning session.
Maybe Gwynn got a different reaction from beginning to workout because of the male:female ratio here? (A woman here wouldn't need to make as much of a change as men would, to get a noticeable change in the number of propositions she gets.) (Another factor is women don't have to learn to be as assertive here as a man does, to get noticed.) (Oh well, I feel better and happier as a result of my workouts and that is enough to keep me doing it.)
The city here is taking applications for the job I am trying for there, for another week yet; but, according to the tv news, they have already got 28 applications. (There is really intense competition for every job here!)
(10pm) Quiet nite. (Nice.)