(4pm) Erica stopped by and paid me with whisky, smoke, and money for the help I have been giving her with Richard's stories. (I do enjoy her company!) (She and Henry are off for Jamaica now. (Good for them!))
I am still blocked when it comes to going out again.
(5pm) Nice walk.
I got some pop to mix with the whisky, come cigs, and some ice cream. (Throw a party for myself.)
(6pm) I ate four x-tops and mixed myself a drink. (Party time.)
(7pm) I do love ice cream.
I am feeling good!
I wonder when Sharon will stop by? (It would be nice to get laid!)
Oh yes, when I helped deliver that waterbed, I visited with Charlotte a bit. (She was surprised that I am 36 and have kids who are closer to her age than I am. (That was nice for the old ego.))
I have switched my studies to management again. (Most of the jobs I have applications in for now are management orientated, and it can't hurt.)
I am still puzzling on the last dream. (I already knew I was choosing work over play. (Was the point that I need to start playing; or that I need to focus on work and making money, so I can afford to play? (Or, do I need to make room for both?)))
One problem with pursuing two careers is that I am not as good at either as I am capable of being.
I will be glad when father's day is past.
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice.)
Another puzzle is why I do okay if the woman makes the first move; but can't even talk about sex before then. (?)
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(Midnite) I wrote some poems. (Neat!)
Maybe my marriage has more to do with who I am now and how I behave, than I would like to concede?
Will time heal?
So many puzzles to untangle!