My behavior in the past five years has brought me experiences that I thought I didn't want, it has blocked experiences I thought I did want; and I am going to have to find different ways to behave, if I want the experiences of my life to change. (I still think I am making better choices and getting better experiences now, but there is a long ways yet to journey.)
Maybe I should remember times in my life when I have gone to the bars, other than the time after my divorce? (I never found lovers; but I had better times, met people quicker, and had fun.)
I don't even want to think about what a wreck I would be now, if it hadn't been for the influence of Erica, Carrie, Samantha, Kate, Billie, … in my life!
(8am) I am feeling good.
I have mixed emotions about Sharon calling. (It isn’t a relationship that has any future, and I don't enjoy her company that much; but maybe it will help to make me more comfortable with sexuality. (Then again, it might generate more quilt; and be negative.)) (Oh well, wait and see what happens.)
(11am) I got the new poems loaded and printed.
Back to poetry corner: