(6pm) One sign that my hermitage is positive is that I have noticed some little changes. (e.g., in the past, often times, I would cross the street rather than cross the path of other people, but now I don't. (I even try to make contact, smile, and say hi to them.))-(e.g., I used to spend a lot of time staring at the ground when I walked, but I seldom do that now.)-(e.g., I have begun to initiate conversations during soak and sweat time at the Club.) (Maybe that doesn't sound like much, but it's amazing to me.)
(8pm) I still feel that starting with friendships in looking for lovers is the form of sexual polygamy I would be most comfortable with; but who knows what will happen.
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice.)
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(9am) My excitement for this morning was hearing the street cleaners coming, and remembering that I forgot to move my truck off the street. (I managed to beat the tow trucks by five minutes, but it's a lousy way to wake up.)
Until I can stop running away from every little thing, I am not properly equipped for human interaction!
(10pm) Quiet day.
I am bored!
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(8am) Looks like a beautiful day.
I wish Carrie would send those letters.
(9am) My plants sure seem to like this space. (And, they are happy that spring has arrived.)
(3pm) Nice workout.
Erica treated me to lunch. (That was sweet of her!)
Erica says I have to stop choosing the extremes in the going out issue. (I have swung from going out almost every nite to almost never going out.) (Neither is a good answer, but each has been an interesting and learning experience.)
(6pm) Nice sun tanning session. (I have noticed that I am not doing much girl watching anymore. (The park was full of women sunbathing today, but I just closed my eyes and ignored them. (It creates a major conflict when I am around women, and it has become easier to avoid women than to resolve the conflict.)))
(11pm) Quiet nite. (Nice.)