Maybe it's small of me, but my affair with Sharon has helped me to restore my confidence in my ability to please women. (It had been so long.) (I did notice some physiological changes from five years ago. (Some good and some bad.))
(3pm) I think my experiences with letting women make the first moves will continue to change; but I have to stay relaxed and open to it. (Being tense destroys the magic.)
(7pm) Time for a typing break.
(11pm) I am too burned out to type anymore tonite.
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(8am) It looks like another beautiful day.
Tis time to fire up the computer and get back to typing.
(10am) Time for a break.
(11am) Well, today in my P.O. Box I found the copy of "Feelings" that I had loaned to Sharon. (There wasn't a note; but I think it's safe to guess that my affair with her is over.) (Oh well, I am used to being alone.)
(1pm) Twas nice having a break from celibacy. (I wonder when the next one will be?) (One problem I can see with the idea of fucking around is that that seems to make building friendships difficult. (Maybe the answer is to find a married woman who wants to play around, and then just build friendships with the single women I meet? (Still confused.))) (She seemed to enjoy the sex, so that tends to support my thought that sex isn't one of women's highest priorities.)
(3pm) Nice workout.
(11pm) I went down to the park and laid out for a couple hours. (I do love sun tanning.)
When I got home there was a message from Erica telling me to come down to the tennis courts, so I walked over there and met her, Miranda, and Charlotte. (I ended up playing tennis for the first time. (That was much fun.)) (Then we walked over to the volleyball court, joined a group of people there, and played that. (Also much fun.)) (Twas strange. (I feel I have the strength to do those things, but I have to teach my body how to move and use that strength first. (And, the only real way to do that is to get out and play.)))
Then Erica came over to the apartment and we put in a couple hours on her computer projects. (Tis nice being able to return some of the kindness she has given me!)
Wonderful nite.