I suppose another way my women drinking buddies helped to keep other women away was not going to after hours parties. (When it came to that time of nite they wanted to be with other men and I got left behind. (The fellows funding the parties were looking for unattached women.))
Another reason partying with them was a way of avoiding other women was that they mostly knew other men, and knew few other women to introduce me to. (Oh well, I had a lot of fun, learned much, grew, …. (I have no regrets!))
I am watching the movie "Stop making sense" again. (Good show.)
I have finished mastering the basics of D-Base, and now it's time to start studying SuperCalc. (I sure have a pile of studying to do.) (I worry a bit that I am burying myself in work to avoid the personal issues that need attention; but, for now, I need to focus on improving my work skills.) (I am not sure now is the time to being investing a lot of time, energy and money in chasing women. (Get the professional stuff together, so I can make some more money first.)-(In the mean time, I have my pen pals to provide me with a bit of companionship, and Wallace when I get desperate for some loving. (I can spend time with my pen pals whenever it fits my schedule and they can fit me into their lives wherever they have an extra moment.)))
(4am) A couple of people commented tonite about how I seemed to be happy. (I am!) (Maybe I shouldn't be, but I am falling more and more in love with life and I can't seem to help it!)
I still sometimes wish I had acted sufficiently different so that I had found a few more lovers, the past couple years. (I met some really neat ladies, and it would have been nice to have been able to play with some of them!) (Oh well, I still have a lot of really beautiful memories, and I am a better man as a result, so don't bitch.)
Erica gave me the phone number of a dating service she had heard about. (Keep checking out different vehicles for meeting new women.) (I think there are probably a lot of women out there whose eyes I could get lost in. (Tis just a matter of getting past my block, and continuing to meet strangers.))
There is one woman who I run into sometimes in the steam room at the Club whose eyes are fascinating. (We have had some nice chats, but I have never come close to working up the courage to ask her out.)
(6am) I suppose I should look for sleep now.
(11am) I managed to catch four hours of sleep.
I feel good.
(2pm) I finally finished watching last nites tv shows. (I do love my vcr.)
I suppose I should put some clothes on.
Erica just dropped by for a visit. (Neat.)
I do think my time of solitude now is good for me.