Perceptions:
1. Tis hard to compare as it has been a long time, but being in shape seemed to have improved my skills in bed.
2. Comparing the three women, I would also say that it makes sex better when the woman is in better shape too.
(5pm) Maybe I am wrong in wanting to find a new drinking buddy? (I am weak in the area of social skills, and in the past I have overcome that by finding drinking buddies whom were extroverts, but maybe that is dependency? (I tried to give to each of them, from the things I am strong at and they were weak at; but maybe I took more than I gave?)) (Maybe I need to go alone, and figure out being social on my own?)
Oh yes, the ladies in Wallace work 1pm to 5am, seven days a week. (I bet they are glad when their period comes around.)
(7pm) I smoked three packs of cigs in seven hours last nite. (I am obviously still a long way from being comfortable with women in sexual contexts.)
(8pm) I ate three x-tops, and now I am going to go check out amateur nite at the strip joint. (Maybe spending time there will help me to adjust my attitude?)
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(Midnite) That was fun!
(1am) Erica had suggested I check out the bar at the Red Lion, so I went down there for a bit. (Dead.) (Tis an older crowd; but not many women, I don't feel comfortable in fancy bars, and the prices are high.)
Maybe I have grown some; but I don't seem to be any closer to being able to deal with a girlfriend, than I was five years ago. (I still have a lot of work to do, to become someone women will find desirable.)
It would be nice if there was a girlfriend in my life to go places with and do things with; but I am getting good at entertaining myself. (I think that learning to enjoy my own companionship is the first step towards becoming someone whose companionship others will enjoy.)
The last day and a half have been fun, and I think I needed to spend some time on those problems; but tomorrow I had better get back to my computer studies.
(1pm) Nice workout.
Well, I played around a bit more with an intro ad, but I am still not quite happy with it.
Oh yes, there were a bunch of college guys at the strip joint last nite. (They were pretty funny.)
(7pm) I still find myself preferring the idea of finding female drinking buddies. (With male drinking buddies, women always chose them over me, and I don't get much time with women.) (With female drinking buddies I get their companionship until it's time for them to spend time with their lovers.)