I have added Reggie to my pen pal list. (She is thinking of moving to Missoula and asked me to send her the job section of the classifieds.)
(4pm) Nice workout.
(6pm) Erica popped in for a visit. (Nice.)
She worked up some ideas to help me with putting together an introduction ad. (Neat.)
I suppose the tension between Erica and me is more intense, but I think it has been there with all my women friends, to some degree. (Erica says not being comfortable around me is a great deal of why she would never consider being my lover, and I think the reason none of my women friends were lovers, is that they were never that comfortable around me either.)
I have come to enjoy my accounting work more. (I still love writing; but they both require spending a lot of time alone. (But, that is my choice. (And, for now, I still feel it's the best one. (It doesn't leave the time necessary for building friendships, and spending time with others; but I think there are some things I need to resolve before I worry about that part of life, and that what I am doing now is what I need to do to resolve those problems.)))) (Intimacy and commitment hold the potential for contributing much to my life; but I have to do some more changing, before I will be prepared for those parts of life.)
Back to work.
(7pm) Time for a break. (And, dinner.)
The nite I got back from Bozeman, I made up a list of things I needed to get done. (The only two things left on the list are go to Wallace and get a kitten. (I suppose that reflects my problem with intimacy.))
(8pm) What is the point in running an introduction ad, until I have the time and money to play?
(9pm) Tonite's tv lineup was cute.
Now back to work.
(11pm) Break time.
D-Base is tougher to learn than Word Perfect, but I am starting to catch on. (Tis nice working on puzzles I can figure out, for a switch. (Computers and numbers can be annoying and frustrating, but they are easier to figure out than relationships.))
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(1am) Enough work.
One of Erica's intro ad ideas is "are you tired of the bar scene?" (How am I supposed to find drinking buddies with that? (I am not sure I am ready for sexual encounters: but I do need to find companions to play with, and the bar scene is where I have always done my playing.))