A lot of women have complained about my girl watching. (Maybe that is part of my undesirability?) (Or is that another thing that women "say" they don't like, but really do?) (I suppose I should at least be subtler about it.)
(8pm) Instead of looking at my sexual average as once a year for the past five years, why not look at as once a day for the past seventeen years?
11-2-86
(2am) Tiredness.
I read Alex Comfort's book "The joy of sex" tonite.
(I don't know how to find lovers, but I can study how to be a better lover.) (Interesting
book.)
Not finding a book on seduction makes me feel very abnormal.
(2pm) Nice walk.
The thought from today's walk is that part of why I don't know what to do is that I am lost as to what goals to pursue.
In last nite's reading, they commented that cigs get in the way of sex because they reduce endurance, and they smell. (They say smell has a lot to do with choosing lovers.) (They agree with my opinion about fat getting in the way of sex.) (It also reminded me that although I know a lot, I have to remember that each woman is different and I have to relearn love making with each new lover.)
Each year touching and being touched become less a part of my life.
(5pm) Erica stopped by and gave my car a jump-start. (The beast is on the road again.) (I am going to fix it up once more and then sell the damn thing.)
(9pm) I suppose another change I should make is to stop checking out all the other women while I am talking to a woman. (I should be paying attention to the person I am with.)
I suppose I have studied enough for now and should start looking for a job, so I will have money to go out. (The only way to learn what I am to say and do is go to the bar and spend a few 1,000 hours studying what other men do and say.)
11-3-86
(Noon) I worked out and took my car into the shop.
(2pm) Erica dropped in and said hi. (Nice.)
(6pm) Nice walk.
11-4-86
(1pm) More car repairs.