(1pm) Maybe I should take Erica's advice and lie through my teeth about how long I have been celibate? (Maybe I should even invent a hot and heavy love life, to tell them about?) (If women thought lots of other women have found me desirable, maybe it would help?)
Another puzzle to work on is how to be "romantic" without hurting anyone. (I have seen lots of women get hurt and I don't want that. (I want to find women to be with and play with, not to hurt them.))
(4pm) Erica stopped by and visited. (Nice.)
(5pm) I am starting to think in terms of fixing up this car again instead of looking for a new one. (For $400-500 I could be rolling again. (And then pray nothing else serious goes wrong for awhile.))
I suppose I still do a lot of touching. (I was definitely touching that one woman I danced with Friday nite and I even gave Gwynn a kiss on the cheek that nite. (I had gotten a bit pissed with her about getting lost and I figured I better show her I wasn't really that mad.)) (I collected a lot of hugs this year over in Bozeman.) (Lisa gives me a hug now and then. (I am in lust with her. (If she lost 20 pounds, I would be in serious lust.)))
There was one woman at the Hat last nite who really fascinated me. (She already had three fellows chasing her and I didn't have the confidence to try. (She did give me some looks that made me wonder if I was supposed to. (?)))
(11pm) I just took a five-hour nap. (Such a wild and crazy fellow.)
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(3am) Quiet nite.
(Noon) I am being lazy today. (e.g., I have been up for three hours and I still haven't bothered to get dressed.)
I think I will take a break from shaving.
Well, I am down to about 30 cigs, so I have to get psyched up for dealing with withdrawal.
(2pm) I wrote letters to Samantha and Hunter and finished another to Carrie.
Now I suppose I should get dressed and go for a walk.
(3pm) Maybe another change to make is to find some way to make women perceive me as macho. (I hate to admit it, but that seems to be what blows women’s’ skirts up.)
I called and visited with Jacob at the County to see if there would be any more consulting for them. (He says I did too good a job last summer, and now everything is running smoothly.) (He did give me a pep talk. (I suppose I should separate business from my personal life. (My way of approaching learning may not work with relationships, but it does with numbers and machines. (I think, if I could get my foot in the door at a few places and talk to them, I wouldn’t have much problem finding work. (At least that is what people who know me in that context keep saying.)))))