I went to the Top Hat tonite again. (The music and girl watching were fun!) (Gwynn and Pete (her beau) showed up, I bs'd with them some, and danced a bit with Gwynn. (She has fun to dance with.) (Gwynn is a sweetheart, but she made me a little uptight tonite. (I don't mean to complain about hugs; but Pete is the jealous type, and she was standing between us telling him what a great guy I am and hugging me. (Oh well, I needed the hug. (Nice.)))))
I stopped in Corky's too and said hi to Dell, Richard, and Ashley.
(11am) I sure got wasted last nite.
Gwynn commented that the Top Hat is a good place for me to meet women. (I don't know. (I have gone there on the average of once a week for ten months now, and I haven't met one yet.) (Oh well, I like the music and the girl watching.))
Sometimes I think of finding someplace else to live, where the women are more aggressive. (It would be better if I could just work through it all here though, and become a little assertive.)
Oh well, work on learning to talk first. (I see so many people to whom that comes so easily, but for me it's a constant struggle to find things to say, and to try and stay relaxed.)
And, learn how to meet women. (Once I am in a situation where I have been introduced and we have talked; I don't seem to have any problems with them liking me; but how to get introduced and a little conversation going is the tricky part for me.)
(3pm) Quote:
Stephen King, "Skeleton crew" - "The
thing to do is to keep trying, I think. It's better to keep kissing and get your face
slapped a few times than it is to give up altogether."
Another thing to learn is to stop feeling sorry for myself because women just want to be friends. (It gets in the way of having fun and makes me a drag to be around.) (Maybe, if I didn't go around feeling sorry for myself and pouting, I would get molested now and then?)
(11pm) Erica stopped by earlier and kept me company for awhile. (Neat.)
Quiet nite of tv and music again.
Erica says she and Gwynn have decided I am going to join a health club and start working out. (I suppose they are right.)
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(6pm) Erica stopped by this afternoon and left me some cookies. (Yum!)
Quiet day of work. (They gave me my notice today. (Only four days? (That pisses me off. I had been promised two weeks, and I have hung around and not looked for another job, so I could do right by them.) (Oh well, I knew they were assholes, so I shouldn’t have expected better.)))
(7pm) I caught up with all my letter writing again. (Pen pals are great!)