The rain is pleasant.
(6pm) Note from the ozone: I wonder if men calling women "sluts" and women calling men "snakes" has to do with the objectification aspect of our sexual games and institutions?
(10pm) Quiet nite.
I sure feel like shit!
9-19-86
(6pm) I am still waking up with headaches, and they are starting to last all day. (And my neck and back are stiff and sore most of the time.) (After reading that book, I am wondering if it's my unconscious trying to tell me something. (But what part and what is the message? (My guess is it's the part that loves to play telling me I am being a stupid asshole again and to cut out being a hermit.)))
9-20-86
(3am) I went down to the Top Hat tonite, enjoyed the tunes, enjoyed the girl watching, and bs'd with a few people. (I am drinking shots with the bartender these days. (He is good people.) (I may not meet lots of people, but I usually get along great with bartenders.)) (I even got asked to dance a couple times tonite. (Neat.)) (When they play slow songs, I still think of Carrie. (It would be nice to be holding her close again!)) (Tonite I sat next to one of the women who hangs out there on a regular basis. (She reminds me a lot of my ex, and I am in serious lust.) (Mostly she sat with her back to me, which was kind of nice, as I had mine turned to her to watch the dance floor, and we spent a lot of the nite rubbing together that way. (Yum.)) (We also visited a bit. (She says that she has no choices. (That is sad!) (I know I have lots of them, and just don't exercise them.) (She has them too, if she would just recognize them!)))
I went by Corky's on my way home. (Gwynn was there and we visited a bit.) (I got her and Dell hi.) (Gwynn says I should join a health club and start working out. (Maybe I would attract a few women, if I were in better shape?) (And it might help to make me more self-confident.))
I suppose it would be worth a few arguments now and then, to work out living with a woman again. (I just can't deal with it, when it happens every day.)
Erica stopped by earlier, visited for a minute, and dropped off some more albums for me to tape. (Neat!)
(5am) I brewed up a pot of coffee and now I am taping "The Billie Holiday Story". (Beautiful voice!)