There is a coincidence in reading it: In '78 I had to go to a seminar in OK City, so I arranged to have dinner with my uncle who lives there. That nite he decided I was pretty screwed up and headed in the wrong direction, so he played a bunch of games with my mind. After reading this book, I see that he was using the neuro-linguistic programming (NLP) techniques they talk about in this book. (Twas after that encounter that I decided to move from Kansas to Montana. (I had to get away from the influence of my dad and build a life for myself, rather than just becoming him.)) (My uncle manipulated me, and the outcome has been pretty bleak financially; but I think I am a better man as a result!) (Another coincidence: Three years after that trip to OK City, I was back there again on business, and the company put me up in the same hotel. (Twas less than a year after that, that I made the other major change I needed to make, and got divorced.)) (Maybe going there triggered something in my unconscious that got me to do the rest of the changing that was needed?)
Another coincidence: In the summer of '77 I went to a seminar in Vail and took my ex and the kids along. (We stayed in a condo unit that had two bedrooms, but was set up so that one of the bedrooms could be rented separately as a motel room. In '77 we just rented the main unit and not the extra bedroom.) (A few weeks after the trip to OK City in '81, I went back to Vail for a week of seminars. This time I went alone, and the company booked me into the same hotel, and they assigned me to the extra bedroom of the condo we had rented in '77.)
Quotes:
John Grinder and
Richard Bandler , "Frogs into Princes" -
"Choices are not mutually exclusive."
"Evolutionarily the next step, which we are all engaged in, is multiple personality."
Note from the ozone: Maybe all the movies and novels I have exposed myself to are stored in my unconscious and available for selecting dialogues and behaviors? (But how do I break through my block and get access to that information?) (Bandler and Grinder might suggest finding some way to give access to all that data to the part of my unconscious mind which is running my defense mechanisms, and let it choose those things which will accomplish its goal of protecting me, which allow me to live a normal life.) (Withdrawal has served to protect me up to now, and has left me a pretty good person who is liked and likes, who is trusted and trusts, and who is loved and loves. But, it has constricted my choices and is keeping me from being played with and playing. (I need to find some way to be someone who has a wider range of choices, so that I can live a fuller life.))
9-17-86
(6pm) Note from the ozone: I think they may well be right in "Frogs into Princes" about being with people. (If you have to think about it, you are going to screw it up.) (They say to learn how to interrelate consciously and then leave it to the unconscious once you have mastered the basics. (I think that relates to what Erica keeps telling me about becoming spontaneous.)) (It also makes me think again about my thought that I am approaching learning about relationships, from the wrong angle.)
Another aspect of the withdrawal syndrome is that I seem to be magnifying all negative input, screening out most of the positive input and probably perceiving some positive input as negative.
9-18-86
(Midnite) Quiet nite of tv.