The only way I can think of that a move to another place can also involve a change in a person, is to combine it with the real work of change. (e.g., move to a new place, work through everything one wants to change about themselves, and then start going out into the new community.) (Maybe I am wrong, but I really don't want to change that much. (I have met interesting and good people along the roads I travel.)) (I need to work on taking better care of my body, but I have come a long way in that department already. (e.g., I should exercise more.) (I have lost a lot of weight, and I am in better shape than ever before; but it would be good to do even more.)) (And, I want to learn to like myself and open up with others, so I have fun and can find lovers. (Touching is a basic human need and I need to restore that to my life, to be healthy.) (e.g., one way would be quitting cigs. (That would require liking myself more and doing something for my health, and it would open up a greater potential for intimacy.))) (I suppose a lot of people would suggest quitting pot and shrooms; but those drugs open up doors of perception, bring me to fun times, often make me more open for interaction, and help me to get through the nites. (They shorten my life, but they also make it more than what it would be without.)) (Anyway, all of those changes could be accomplished without moving to another place, and are what is really needed to make the important changes that really need to be made. (The only advantage in moving would be that I wouldn't need to go through the process of changing how others perceive me. (e.g., in Bozeman, lots of women know me, and, if they don't, someone they know does; and they have a fairly well established "picture" of me in their minds.) By moving, changing, and then interacting with the new women I meet in a different way, I would create a different "picture" of me in the minds of those women. If I had stayed in Bozeman, I would first have to destroy the old "picture" along with creating a new one, with each of the women I know. (That picture can be anything I chose to make it; but, like I have said, I don't really want to change the picture that much. (In many ways, I feel I am a pretty neat person, the way I am; and don't want to throw those parts away!)))) (I think the same is true of Carrie's puzzle. (She is a pretty neat person, just the way she is; and, like me, she really only needs to come to like herself more! (Tis neat how she makes me think about things like this!))) (This move to Missoula might be a good time to make those changes in me. (I have been mostly a hermit so far and know few people; so no one has any predefined ideas about who I am, and I can create any new impression I choose to.))-(That wasn't why I moved here (I moved here to come to terms with my feelings for Erica.), but it could be used as an opportunity to start over as a different person!)
Time for a brew.
(10pm) Oh yes, Erica added another comment on the book. (She says all my "nice ass" comments have to go. (Oh well.))
(11pm) Notes from the ozone:
1. Maybe the biggest problem with the concept of "sexual monogamy" is that it’s tied so strongly to the redefining of human beings as objects and property? (If it's in the contract that two people "own" each other that establishes the psychological groundwork for the idea that the government "owns" each person who has entered into a social contract with it.)
2. Another big problem with it is the fact that it doesn't fit the realities of the human animal. (In that way the Church insures that people will feel guilty, so they need an altar to go to for forgiveness and absolution. (And, to pay alms to.) (If it weren't for the conflict set up by confining the human animal in a cage of "sexual monogamy"; there wouldn't be nearly as many sinners, and much less need for churches!))