(7pm) I took a nap and I feel much better now. (I seem to end up spending my Saturdays recovering from Friday nite and preparing to do it again Saturday nite.) (Maybe I would have better luck meeting people by going biking or something else besides the bars; but that is the life I know and I seem to need a little help from alcohol in order to relax enough to be open to meeting women. (Then again, I am not meeting anyone this way either.)-(Going to the bar and hanging out has brought me a lot of companionship in the past; but I spent a lot more time in bars back then (And, maybe I am more withdrawn now?)))
Another problem is that I enjoy Erica's company so much. (I will sit around all day on the off chance that she will call or stop by to visit me.)
(8pm) It looks like it was a beautiful day. (Maybe someday I will find some people to do things with, instead of hanging out in bars?)-(Actually it doesn't matter what we do, it's just a lot more fun doing things with others.)
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(Midnite) I walked downtown, but it was pretty blasé. (Or, is it me that is blasé again?)
Erica called earlier and visited. (Nice.)
Now to get a little more wasted, so that I pass out without having to visit with Rosie again today. (Three times is enough.)
In a movie I saw recently, there was a scene where one of the men tells the female lead that he is going to be her "master". (Why do some people long to conquer other people?) (Why would a man want a woman in his life that wasn't independent?) (Dependent relationships are a waste of time and energy; and eventually destroy themselves from within!)
The thing I don't like about Samantha's version of living with someone and having occasional flings with others is that, while she considers it ok if she has affairs, she gets real bent when Leo even talks to another woman. (That doesn't seem fair.)
I have been wondering if I shouldn't switch to different bars and different times, than what I have been. (Find somewhere there are some women closer to my age and where the atmosphere is more conducive to conversations. (The average age at the Hat is around 22 or so and it isn’t very likely that I will find someone there who will be interested.))
There was a comment in one of the texts for this week's seminars that referred to the interrelationship between problems and thinking. (i.e., that the problems in our lives teach us to think and keep our minds from turning to mush.) (I think one of the biggest drawbacks to the trend in our society to turn personal problems over to the government to solve, is that it creates a culture made up of dull-minded people.)-(And, it gives too much power to the government.)-(And, the government is incapable of dealing with them all. (There just isn't enough money to solve everyone's problems and to lead everyone around by the hand all the time.))
Don't Morris Day and the Time simply put the "Principle of Seduction" to music?
(11am) I managed to sleep late today, but I still feel like shit.
One thing that did come out of last nite was a bunch of notes, so I will do some writing.