(5pm) Today I took my bike out for a cruise. (I stopped into Corky's and bs'd a bit with Lisa, and then out to the mall to do some girl watching.) (Nice.) (I can really feel the cigs when I go riding.)
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(2am) I walked down to the Top Hat tonite. (The music and girl watching were great.) (There were a lot of attractive, unattached older women there tonite, but I was just too tired and scared to even ask anyone to dance. (Oh well, live music is one of my favorite parts of life, and it's a joy to just go and listen!))
I am still confused by Erica putting Carrie down for using men. (They both flirt with lots of men and Erica claims that she seldom has to buy cocaine either; but the difference is that Carrie beds them regularly and Erica doesn't. (Is just teasing better than pleasing, in those situations?)) (Personally, I feel that it's totally a matter of what fits each individual at a particular point in time, and that there is no universal "right" or "wrong" way.) (They are both beautiful and loving human beings, and although they chose different ways in the same circumstances, I don't think one is right and the other is wrong!)
I took myself to see "Jo Jo Dancer" before going to the bar tonite. (Pretty good flick.)
(2pm) Quiet day of studying.
I don't mean to sound like I am putting down women who like a lot of makeup, lots of nice clothes, cocaine, lots of partying, or anything else that costs money. Tis just that, for now anyway, I can't afford a relationship with a woman whom can't afford to pay for all she wants. (So, I rule out a lot of women because I can't afford to be with them.)
(3pm) I was going to go for a bike ride today, but the rain department can't figure out whether it's going to work today or not.
(8pm) I took myself down to Flippers today and shot some pool.
After that I picked some movies to watch this evening. (Nice afternoon.)
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(Midnite) Tonite's movies were good.
(7am) Maybe it isn’t very romantic to make money such an important criteria in looking for a girlfriend, but it's my reality. (e.g., money is one of the leading causes of divorces.) (When I would bring that topic up with my ex, she would get bent and swear that money didn't make any difference, and that being with me was all that mattered. Then she would turn around and bitch and moan about all the things that I needed to get for her. (Or just take off with the credit cards on a spending spree.))-(If I couldn't afford to get her what she wanted, when she wanted it, she made life hell for me, until I did get it.)-(Which is why now is the first time in a long long time I have been able to have and spend some money on me. (Tis nice working for me for some of the time.)) (I suppose there are women who either have money of their own or who wouldn't mind poverty, so keep looking.)
(8am) Tis cool, but nice this morning.