5-6-85
(8am) Back to Monday morning once again. (Boo.)
Thoughts from last nite:
1. Although I don't trust my ex, I do wish her well.
2. I have told myself I don't go down to the Filler because it’s too far to walk, but is it? (Tis a place where there is music and where some of the older local women go sometimes. (Maybe I am just hiding, by not going there?))
(Noon) Samantha stopped by the office and told me all about the big party she went to yesterday. (It sounds like a fun time was had by all.)
(10pm) Samantha stopped by this evening and beat me at Scrabble.
Hunter was in a blue funk tonite, until a couple of his friends from school stopped by. (They dragged him out to go for a few brews.)
5-7-85
(7am) One woman I ran into at the Filler the other nite was telling me about a party she had gone to the weekend before out at the river. (She was bitching about one fellow who was trying to pick her up, and how she didn't want to give the satisfaction of having f'ed two women in one day. (I reminded her that she had told me once that she loved taking on two or three guys at the same time and how wonderful that was; and I asked her what the difference was. (She couldn't think of an answer.)))-(Why would that be ok for women and not men?)-(I have noticed a lot of guys who have some similar attitudes. (i.e., feeling it’s ok if they f around, but calling women who do the same thing "sluts."))
(8am) I called one of the people who still owe me for tax work, and he promised to get me a check. (It isn’t much, but it will get a few more manuscripts in the mail, and allow me to do a little partying.)
(2pm) I suppose one of the biggest reasons I am not making much money at accounting is that it bores me. (Once I understand the basics of something and know that I could master it if I applied myself; I get bored with it and want to move on to studying something new.)-(As a result I know a little about a lot of things, but not a lot about anything. (In a world of specialists, being a generalist isn’t very profitable.))
Jess Lair may be right with his idea about marrying
your best friend. (I know I fall in lust so often that I don't think that is a meaningful
criteria, by itself. (It needs to be there, but that is far from the only important
factor.)-(Lust is fine for the f, but it passes quickly and one can't spend their whole
life in bed.) (I now feel that what I need to look for is some combination of lust,
liking, and caring for the other.)
Maybe, rather than being past my prime, as Samantha says; I am not even close to attaining it yet? (I have so much to learn and say, and I think my best is yet to come.)
(3pm) One woman I know stopped by the office today on her way up to the welfare office and showed me her new baby. (Definitely a cutie.) (She is a nice lady. (And, unfortunately, another woman who puts up with a husband who beats her.))