12-28-92
(7am) Happy one year of celibacy to me!
(9pm) Erica stopped by and visited a bit. (Neat!)
12-30-92
(6pm) Erica stopped by to say hi. (Neat!)
She isn’t feeling well again. (Sad!)
1-1-93
(4pm) Happy New Year!
I finally caught up on my notes and wrote a few pages. (Amazing!)
Last nite I had planned on walking downtown to the strip joint, but I fell asleep reading around 9pm. (Such a wild and crazy guy!)
Erica says one of her friends told her to give me a fuck for Xmas. (That would be nice, but she wouldn’t do me with someone else’s pussy.)
1-2-93
(10am) From what I over heard Bryan saying to his friends, they spent Xmas driving around checking out the Xmas displays around town.
While he was back in Belgrade, he says he spent most of his time cruising around with his friends and spent little time with his mom. (I suppose she blames me for that. (Paranoia about all this shit with her is probably the root of that spooky dream I had.) (She was very vindictive and I can’t help but worry she will strike out at me.)) (I have talked to several others at work who have kids this age and they all report identical behavior. (At this age they are trying to formulate their own identities and pushing parents away is part of that.)-(I also wonder if it’s genetically programmed into us, so that kids become sufficiently obnoxious that their parents are more than happy to push them out of the nest.))
I hadn’t watched any football yet this year, so I did a little of that last nite. (Tis pleasant in small doses, but I am not interested enough to do it all season. (I did when I was younger, but that disappeared around 23.))
(11am) They keep working on developing the option of using a pen as the input device for computers. (I am ready! (I would much prefer that to keyboards!)) (I think part of why my reading and writing habits have changed is computers. (Fiction and poetry, for me, are in the realm of tactually processed information, and the non-fiction I seem to have switched to is in the realm of visual processing. (Switching from pencil and paper to keyboard and computer screen at work has definitely been a shift from tactile to visual tools, and the changes in my reading and writing came at about the same time as that change.)))