11-17-91
(3pm) Quiet weekend again so far. (Nice!)
11-18-91
(7pm) Erica stopped by and bs’d. (Neat!)
Financially, moving to Anaconda would be good for her.
11-19-91
(5pm) I have been in Missoula six years now. (It has been a nice place to study and ponder.) (Sometimes I contemplate moving on, but I can’t figure out where would be any better.) (Oh well, hang out here a couple more years until Bryan is out of high school, and then think about that again.)
11-20-91
(7pm) Erica stopped by for a bowl and a brew. (Neat!)
(8pm) Carrie called. (She agrees with Erica that my response to the singles ads was too negative. (I do tend to sabotage things.)-(Then again being dishonest about whom I am won't get me far.)-(Who I am doesn’t fit with many women’s dreams and fantasies, and there aren’t going to be many who will want to be with me.)-(I have reached a point where I like myself and enjoy my own company; but I also accept that my habits, philosophy, finances, …, limits the number of women who would want to spend time with me.)) (We talked about how we have both gotten into routines we mostly enjoy, and how hard it is to change the routine or let someone else in. (Tis nice getting comfortable with being alone and happy with me, and I am not likely to let anyone in who can’t make life better. (When I met my ex I was overcome by loneliness and desperate, and I am less likely to make that mistake now.))) (She offered to call Saturday to see if Bryan is home. (If he isn’t, I would just as soon not waste time waiting around.))
11-21-91
(8pm) Erica stopped by for some dominos. (Neat!)
11-24-91
(6pm) Erica stopped by and bs’d awhile. (Neat!)
Once again Bryan didn’t show up. (Sad!) (I wonder why? (It could be revenge.)-(It could be my ex is intercepting the mail and he isn’t getting it.)-(Maybe seeing me makes life worse at home, so he skips me to make my ex happy.))
Twas nice seeing Carrie and the twins!
Her health has been deteriorating. (Sad!)
Tis amazing how fast the twins are growing up. (Seeing them only occasionally, the change is really noticeable.)