1-26-90
(3pm) I decided to use a couple hours of vacation time. (Work was getting boring!)
I know there is no rational reason for my social behavior (or lack of it). (That is what defines it as a phobia. (Tis irrational.)) (My unconscious mind has been conditioned to fear social situations and it keeps running that program over and over again, even though it isn’t rational and is harmful to me.)
Miranda says that she doesn’t like that paralegal!
I got a letter from my dad. (He sounds ok.) (He is working less, but his wife’s health is getting worse, so they aren’t going anywhere. (Sad!))
1-27-90
(11am) Laundry time once more.
It has been a mellow day so far, but it’s going to get busy soon.
1-28-90
(3am) Erica and Miranda dragged me out bar hopping. (Wonderful!)
As always I feel somewhat conflicted. (I feel guilty about being dependent, but spending time with friends is wonderful!) (Going out with friends makes it much easier to interact!)
(4am) Time for dreamland!
(2pm) I slept great and feel good!
(5pm) The football game is pretty blasé.
1-29-90
(7am) Happy birthday to Erica!
(5pm) Erica stopped by for a bowl and a brew. (Neat!)
(8pm) Nice workout!
(11pm) Tiredness!
1-30-90
(9pm) Erica stopped by for a few bowls and brews. (Neat!)
(11pm) Beddie bye time.