I am thinking about taking some classes at the university. (The City will reimburse the cost and it would be good therapy.)
(5pm) Chores are finally done.
I spent time wandering around the grocery store, trying to think of some new foods to prepare, but I couldn’t think of anything.
1-7-90
(1am) Another blasé Saturday nite.
Tis frustrating to have problems with physical intimacy! (Compared to my marriage, my divorce has been nice. (Platonic relationships are frustrating and painful sometimes, but I have enjoyed my women friends company!)) (Hopefully someday I will be able to deal with a relationship that has both emotional and physical intimacy!)
I love Chinese tea, but I haven’t been able to find any in awhile. (I will have to get out of my rut and check some different stores.)
Today’s chores have reinjured my wrist. (Darn!)
I have got to get back in gear with getting my body into better shape!
(5pm) Erica stopped by to say hi. (Neat!)
(10pm) Time for sleep!
1-8-90
(8pm) I had a good workout tonite. (I have to start making it more often!) (My wrist is sore though. (I am glad I skipped last week when it was bad!)) (There was more waiting than normal, but I didn’t mind. (I need the breathers!)) (I lost two more pounds over the holidays. (Amazing!))
(10pm) Being alone over the holidays probably bothered me more than I thought and I suppose that was what the tears then were about. (Tears are therapeutic!)
It isn’t so much that we should avoid judging others, as learning to accept one’s own humanness as well as others. (Superficially, fucking everyone and fucking no one don’t appear to be the same, but they both result in avoiding commitment.) (Back in the Paw days I was pretty much alone in fucking no one; but I get the impression that I am not quite as alone in the choice anymore. (Sex has gotten more dangerous and the awareness of the potential problems has risen since then. (We didn’t get much time between the era when syphilis was incurable to now when Aids is incurable.)))
1-9-90
(5pm) I stopped by and fixed Erica’s vcr again.
(8pm) Erica stopped by for a bowl and a brew. (Neat!)