(10pm) I have been trying to get psyched up to go out, but I am failing again. (I have gotten all ready to go out, but I am not having any luck with making it out the door.)
10-15-89
(Midnite) Time to crash and burn!
(4pm) Quiet day so far.
I spent a couple hours cleaning in the bathroom and kitchen. (Amazing!) (I barely put a dent in it though.)
(10pm) Another quiet day. (How blasé!)
I have noticed my craving for finding lovers is going up again. (Must be autumn again.)-(It still isn’t strong enough to overcome my fear. (I hope that someday it does!))
10-16-89
(7am) I have Monica’s tapes done, but she hasn’t stopped by to get them. (Maybe Erica didn’t tell her that I can’t initiate social interaction?)
(5pm) Erica gave me a ride to work. (Brightened my day much!)
(8pm) Nice workout!
I have lost two more pounds since switching to diet pop. (With all the whisky I drank the last two weeks, it’s amazing I didn’t gain weight!)
Erica says that Paul finally found a job. (Maybe that will help the relationship. (Having to support him has been one of Linda’s big problems with the relationship. (My feeling has always been that what she really wanted was someone who would support her, so she could stay home and play housewife.)))
(11pm) Time for dreamland!
10-17-89
(5pm) Busy day!
I got my new computer at work today. (Neat!)
(10pm) Tiredness!
10-18-89
(5pm) Busy day!
I spent today setting up new computers for other people, so I didn’t get to play with mine. (It feels good to help others!)