(11pm) Time for this old man to sleep!
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(3pm) Quiet day or reading so far.
I picked up some new music. (Neat!)
(7pm) My mood has been better lately. (Nice!)
My horoscope still keeps coming back to the "listen to Virgo" recommendation?
Mary seems to find some excuse to talk to me most days at work. (She is interesting!)
Tis almost time for the new tv season. (Yeah!) (I am getting tired of reruns!)
Rachel and Nina have been talking to me more at work lately. (They have been pretty bitter because of their divorces and they still haven’t mellowed out much.)
Tis sad the weekend is almost done. (Fortunately next weekend is three days long!)
I am getting tired of the rain, but we needed it and I shouldn’t complain about that.
(10pm) Another day bites the dust!
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(6pm) Erica stopped by for a minute. (Neat!)
(8pm) Nice workout!
Ultimately my excuses tend to reflect my generalized fear of people and the sexual aversion. (I am trying to work some on my lower level anxieties, like I am supposed to for my therapy (e.g., the break room); but there isn’t a lot of the more intense anxiety I can work on alone. (That will have to wait until I can afford to go out several nites a week.)) (My inability to go out broke comes in part from my dad, in part from my business training, but mostly from bad experiences when I have tried that. (Most of the women I have asked about it confirm my theory that they aren’t interested in poor men.)) (My business training has seemed to decrease the amount of fun I have when I am broke. (Once upon a time I was a lot more spontaneous and didn’t consider the financial impacts of everything I do.)) (I suppose the time I did go out broke was a failure in part because of poverty, but a lot of it was my fear. (Women had a lot of excuses for not going out with me and standing me up, and money was one of those; but I now think that they read the fear in my eyes and were repulsed by that. (They may not have been aware of that at the conscious level, so they used things like poverty as excuses to explain the repulsion.)))
(9pm) The guy from the utility company stopped by and found a problem in the basement with my hot water heater. (Now I have no hot water until the landlord gets around to dealing with that.)
I have been having trouble with numbness when I walk again. (Another reason I should quit cigs again.)