The urge for a cig is higher today! (Annoying!) (When I was a kid I always thought it was bad that my mom chained smoked and said I would never start. (I wish I hadn’t!))-(I didn’t start until I was almost 20.)
(6pm) Helen baked me a cake and brought it to work today. (Yum!) (A bunch of people stopped by my office and wished me a happy birthday.) (Beth’s comment was "Try and have a good birthday. I know you will have to force yourself, but try anyway." (I think I usually have a good day, but maybe I don’t and I just don’t see it?))
I got a card from my sister. (Her carpal tunnel problem is getting worse. (She says it got so bad she had to quit her job.)-(She is continuing with the chiropractor for now. (She is nervous about the idea of surgery.)))
I forgot to thaw out food for dinner. (Oh well, have some hot dogs.)
I picked up some JD. (Now it’s time to catch a buzz!)
I have enough smoke for tonite anyway. (Nice!)
Four of the 24 seeds I planted came up. (That is enough for my needs.)
TGI a four day weekend!
(7pm) I am catching a nice buzz and I am feeling good!
(9pm) Erica stopped by and brought me a rack for my tape collection. (Neat!)
I firmly believe that what goes around comes around. (That is why I try to be nice and give to others. (I want some nice things to happen to me, and I need to be nice to others for that to happen.))
I ate three x-tops.
(10pm) Just thinking about going to the bar is painful! (Why put myself through that torture on my birthday?) (Someday I will have to go through the pain of getting into being a bar regular again, but I am not up to it now. (Such a basket case!))
Cigs are hard to quit! (Constant struggle!) (It isn’t as bad as the first couple days though.) (It never goes away completely, but it will keep getting better.)
From what Miranda says it sounds like she has a lot of anger towards Jeremy that she still has to work through before she will be able to build a new relationship with someone. (In order to build the physical and emotional intimacy a relationship requires to flourish, she has to be able to trust and to communicate! In order to do that she first has to get past the fear and anger!)
I have got a bunch of chores to deal with tomorrow. (Yech!)
D O finally made it home.