Today’s dentist visit went ok. (I have two more visits to go, so he can work on my gums.) (Tis nice having white teeth!)
I got my grocery trip out of the way.
Inner turmoil gets to be a drag!
(8pm) I hope Erica gets over being mad at Ashley soon. (Tis pretty useless and will get in the way of healing and moving on with her life!)
The bud she left me sure tastes good!
The book "Love me, love me not" is a good one on affairs. (It happens to a lot of people!)-(I didn’t see it at the time, but, looking back, my flings said a lot about my marriage. (I used them as an excuse for getting out.)-(And, rationalizations. (e.g., I am bad and she deserves better.))) (The affairs aren’t as important as understanding the message being communicated! (Sex is a very powerful form of nonverbal communication!))
(9pm) Tiredness!
D O is still out and about. (Oh well!)
I have been studying a lot about computers for the past month at work. (Tis nice to keep learning!)
(11pm) D O came home and woke me up. (Tis sweet of her to let me know she is home! (The bathroom could get pretty nippy with the window open all nite! (With no heat in there, it gets pretty cool even with the window closed.)))
Now I am having trouble getting back to sleep.
I think I will do the Club Friday and sleep in tomorrow. (Going to the Club in the morning has a lot to do with going to bed early, and it’s probably part of why I am not making it to the Club as often as I would like. (It does get hard to get psyched up to go lift weights at 6am.)) (I haven’t ever tried the Club after work. (Maybe I should?))
I have sure found a lot of shelter from my internal turmoil through writing! (Tis good therapy!)
I suppose I should send out poems to some more publishers. (Collect some more rejection letters.) (The problem is that I think part of why I am not writing much poetry now is the rejection has gotten in the way.)
Without trust there isn’t much point to a relationship with Beth. (Patience!)-(Hopefully someday I will be ready, someone will come along and the magic will happen. (In the mean time, I am not unhappy. (I have everything I really need!)))
Time to look for sleep again!
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(7am) This morning sure went by fast!