(9pm) Putting a grow room in the bedroom closet will totally rule out any involvement with straight women! (It needs air, so I will need to leave the door open some with a fan going. (That will make the apartment smell more like pot, when they get big, and it will be pretty obvious.)) (Maybe I should invent a girlfriend for work, just to keep single women away?)
I have only got 40 poems to go, to finish the first edit. (I don’t think the next time through will take as long. (Who knows though.))
(11pm) Erica stopped by and we played some Yahtzee. (Neat!)
Twas different watching the x-rated video with someone! (Be nice with a woman who was into playing!) (I have come to think of every part of sex, except pain, as beautiful!) (Erica thought the deep throat scenes were faked. (My ex could do that, so I know that it is possible (and feels great!).)) (When Samantha came over to visit we did shrooms and watched it. (She wouldn’t play along with it either. (Oh well, friends are really great too.)))
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(Midnite) I have fantasized about being with more than one woman at once, but I don’t know that I would want to try. (That may be one of those things where the fantasy is better than the reality, and I would hate to spoil the fantasy.) (It would solve the problem I have had since I left my ex of finding someone who could keep up with me.)
Another fantasy is to rent a video camera and make an x-rated movie. (That could be fun!) (And, I think it would be positive to make x-rated movies where there is one two-hour love scene, rather than a half a dozen 15 minute one’s. (Shift the focus from the male orgasm to the female orgasm.))
Now I am horny! (Oh well, I know how to deal with that!) (It would be nicer to devote my time to pleasing someone else, while she takes care of pleasing me; but it isn’t time for that now.)-(Patience!)
Having the tv on helps me with not girl watching when women come by. (It gives me something else to look at. (I try to just look at eyes; but my eyes seem to have a mind of their own, and keep drifting off to other parts of the anatomy.))
This will be the first time I have run out of smoke in about a year. (I ran out two weeks ago, but I cleaned the pipes and smoked resin until some smoke came in.)
With the fan going and the window open it got a bit chilly tonite. (Another advantage of quitting cigs would be that I wouldn’t need to leave the fan going to clear the smoke. (I don’t mind it in the summer, but when it gets colder it’s a problem.)) (I would still have to run the fan in winter to move the warm air to other parts of the apartment, but I wouldn’t have to point it at myself anymore.)
Hopefully Erica doesn’t get impatient about getting the new place situated the way she wants it. (In my experience that is a slow process. (e.g., I have rearranged the furniture here several times, trying to find the combination that works best.)-(e.g., I still have stuff in boxes and I have been here over two years.))