(7pm) I went through the cable guide and figured out what movies I would like to see next month.
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(2am) Erica and Miranda stopped by and I went out with them. (Twas a wonderful nite!) (Twas nice spending time with friends and talking for a change! (That is one of my favorite parts of life!))
My gut feeling is that Miranda is ok, but I still worry. (I have been out on the edge a few times and it is a tenuous time.) (She reminds me a bit of myself during the first year of divorce. (She is handling it better and is working through it faster than I have.))
Miranda is independent and there is nothing anyone can say that will change her mind once she has made it up. (She is still carrying around anger about something.) (Maybe part of why I am attracted to her is that we both like privacy.) (She always makes me feel happy. (Nice!))
(9am) I feel great! (I will have to remember to drink beer instead of whisky.)
Twas fun shooting pool again! (I felt comfortable and shot well.)-(Being with friends helps!)
In the period right after my divorce I was on an emotional roller coaster and was overwhelmed by it all. (If I had tried cocaine then, it would have been even more intense.) (Looking back, I think a lot of my problem was that I had hidden from my emotions for a very long time. Then when they did come to the surface they did so with a lot of force and magnitude. (I didn’t have the experience necessary to know what to do with them.))-(I can’t explain how, but now I just let myself flow with them. As a result, they go away faster and the intensity is much less. (Nice!))-(Another aspect is that I don’t suppress things as much as I was doing during my marriage.)-(And the exercise routine helps also.)
(1pm) Well, I got my big grocery trip done.
I picked up Yahtzee. (Something new to learn. (Neat!))
I picked up a fishing license too. (Maybe I will make it this year.)
(2pm) I suppose I should repot the rest of my plants soon.
Volleyball would be fun! (Things like that are good therapies for me!)
The lilacs have only been lasting for a day. (Tis a nice way to brighten the place up!)
(3pm) Nice walk!
Nites like last nite remind me of how it used to be partying with Samantha and Carrie. (One difference is that I was usually sad then, and now I am usually happy.)
It would be nice to party a bunch in Kansas, but who knows. (I will probably end up spending a lot of time with my dad, and that isn’t the appropriate time for a lot of partying.)
(6pm) I am tired!