A girlfriend would be nice, but I don’t seem to have what it takes to deal with physical intimacy and commitment. (Maybe, as many have said, I just haven’t met the right woman yet?) (Patience!)
Lauren is on vacation in California. (Good for her!)
Tis nice to be so happy now! (I can remember the depressions and loneliness, and see it in the poems I am editing now; but I can’t relate to it anymore. (Neat!) (I have never been happier!))
I am happy for my sister! (Tis neat she has finally found someone to settle down with.)
Going back to Kansas will be interesting. (Uncomfortable though. (If it’s a normal June, it will be hot, humid, and tornado season.) (Hopefully there will be a good light show. (One thing I miss about Kansas is the spectacular thunderstorms.))
I will have to go visit my mom’s grave and say hi.
It will be a drag not being able to smoke on the plane. (That habit sure gets to be a pain.)
I did a little bar hopping on the way home.
Ross and Carly seemed a bit more comfortable together last nite. (Maybe that means the sex therapy is going well.)
(1am) Time for sleep.
(8am) I have got a dousy of a headache. (That seems to be one negative side effect of cocaine.)
(10am) Laundry time.
The thing I am conscious of with Sharon is that she has a jealous streak and wouldn’t be able to deal with my women friends. (When I find someone, it needs to be someone who can accept all of them.)
(1pm) Well, I got my chores done.
I am uptight and I am having trouble getting psyched up to go to the concert. (So, what else is new?)
(6pm) The concert was great! (Great music and girl watching!)
I ran into several women from work and bs’d with them. (Nice!)
I ran into Jim and bs’d with him also. (We decided we are both in lust with Miranda.) (He says he would rather live alone and just date Charlotte.) (He says she gets pissed at him for going out when she doesn’t want to. (He figures she has her nites out alone and it’s only fair that he get some nites out on his own too.))
I am pretty buzzed!