My ex had a very addictive personality and took as much as she could from everyone she could. (I hope she has overcome that!)
She says Charlotte’s boyfriend Jim is interested in becoming a firefighter, and wants me to get their union pay matrix for him. (I think that would be a good job for him.)-(He is good people!)-(He currently works for the ambulance service and life flight as an emergency medical technician.)
It sounds like Erica had a fun weekend of skiing again. (Good for her!)
(10pm) The class went fast and was fun. (There are three guys and five women in the class. (One of the guys is in charge of maintenance at the County and we bs’d about City / County politics.))
I called my landlord and he will be by tomorrow to fix the frig. (I hope all my food isn’t lost by then!) (I am a bit pissed he didn’t fix it today.)
Tomorrow I start working out at nite. (I am curious to see what the Club is like in the evenings.)
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(5pm) Busy day again!
The landlord left the key in the door, but I got lucky and didn’t get robbed. (If I have got to be poor I would rather be in Montana. (A lot of slum areas like this are plagued by crime, but here it’s safe to walk the streets and theft isn’t too high.)) (My landlord is a bit of an air head (And, a bit strange.) (He is an electrician, but it doesn’t sound like he works much.) (His mom owns the properties here and he manages them.)-(She lives somewhere else and I think she bought real estate here so he would have something to do and some income.) (He takes classes at the university off and on.) (There are a lot of paintings in his apartment, so maybe he is an artist. (His place makes mine look spotless.)-(He has a lot of mirrors laying around?)))
I was thinking back and I would guess Erica gave me at least $1,000 worth of drinks during her bartender days. (She brightened up a lot of broke nites!) (If you add in all the little stuff she has done to make my poverty more pleasant, I owe her much.) (Keep doing things for her and maybe I will repay all her kindness in time.)
(9pm) Erica stopped and kept me company for awhile. (Neat!)
I usually enjoy being with people, but it’s hard for me to initiate contact. (Frustrating!)
Erica offered to give me Carrie’s new address, but I declined. (I think I better wait for her to reach out to me.)
I feel like a total failure sometimes. (Tis frustrating being crippled by anxiety attacks, and unable to do what so many do easily.) (Being around people is sort of like physical therapy for a person with a physical disability. (The therapy is painful, but, over time, it hopefully becomes less so and hopefully the person gets stronger.))