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(7am) I slept late again and it has been another hectic morning. (Oh well, I must need the rest.)
(5pm) Work was hectic! (Nice!)
I spent a good part of today in meetings with the County and HRDC.
(7pm) Chores are done and dinner is out of the way again. (Yeah!)
I thought about going out tonite, but staying home is winning out. (Tomorrow is going to be busy!) (And, although it’s nice going out, it isn’t much different than staying home. (I am still so uptight, I am not even close to interacting with others, or letting go, or playing, or ….)-(Tis tough fighting off the anxiety I experience, just getting psyched up for getting through the door!)-(Frustrating!))
Another reason to stay home tonite is to save money for the trip. (I only have $80 left.)
Sabrina says I better make it to the beach. (Carrie is more important.)
There was a cutie at the HDRC meeting.
Bayley is at the Down Under next weekend. (I will have to get psyched up and go one nite!)
(10pm) Erica stopped in and we had a nice long visit. (Twas nice spending some time with a woman friend! (I work around a lot of women, but most of my interaction with people comes through going to meetings. (And, the upper level people who go to meetings are mostly male.)-(e.g., this mornings meeting consisted of eight men and the one I went to this afternoon had ten men and one woman.)))
She is feeling like she is lazy. (She works hard and plays hard and I think that is a good balance.) (People shouldn’t be comparing themselves to me. I get a lot more work done than most, but it’s because I am a hermit who fills up most of my time with work.)
It sounds like her health is improving. (Relief!)
Who knows if I will connect with Carrie in LA? (The post office would have to get it there in time, she would have to stop at home and find it, she would have to open it rather than throwing it in the trash, and then she would have to be willing and able to invest some time and money into a trip to LA.) (I would say it’s unlikely I will see her.)
From what Erica says it sounds like Linda and Paul are drug addicts, and she is getting tired of them consuming more than they donate at parties. (Samantha was always a bit of a pig with drugs, but she was fun to be with and she put up with me, so it was worth the cost.)
I noticed during Erica’s visit that I kept moving around and squirming and wasn’t real comfortable. (I still have a ways to go to open up my body language and be relaxed socially!) (I am getting better at work.)