2-15-88
(8am) Happy birthday to Bryan!
The last three mornings I have awaken with D O sitting on my chest. (Pretty weird waking up with claws in my face.) (She doesn't like it when I sleep in.)
(2pm) Another quiet day of movies so far. (Nice!)
(7pm) Erica stopped by and brought me some cake. (Neat!)
D O ran out the door again, but Erica managed to snag her before she got too far.
I haven't written much this year. (I am way behind on writing to pen pals.) (I am withdrawing again. (So what else is new?))
(8pm) I wonder if I will ever overcome my fears and learn to trust my own judgement? (I have been this way so long now I can't imagine another way to be.)
(9pm) Quiet nite. (Nice!)
I have been pondering the idea of publishing again. (I am not sure I want to try anymore.) (From what I have seen success has a lot of negative aspects.)-(Writing pleases me and I am content and happy with doing it for my own pleasure.) (Maybe I am just protecting my ego though. Tis already pretty tiny and fragile, and rejection letters take a toll.) (Oh well, keep writing and enjoy the pleasures of being unknown.)
Oh yes, the Judge says he is disappointed with me. (He wanted to know how much I made and was shocked at how low my pay is.)-(He was more upset that I am content with it.) (He wanted to know what I study and was upset that I don't devote all my time to studying taxation.) (He said I should have my boss' job and I told him I am not willing to work that many hours. (I can manage 40-50 hours a week of that kind of work, but the rest of the time I want to forget about it! (Hopefully I will start doing a better job of shutting off work when I walk out of City Hall.)))
Erica gave me some rechargeable batteries. (They sure are neat!)
(10pm) Sleep is being elusive tonite. (Oh well!)
2-16-88
(7am) I didn't manage to crawl out of bed until 6am. (I will have to do better tomorrow! (I have to pick up the City car around 5am in order to make it to Helena on time. (I wish I could drive my truck.)-(The City car available to our department is a pile of shit! (e.g., the seat won't move, so I end up driving with my knees up around the dashboard.))))
I feel bloated today. (Three days of sitting home on my ass, I suppose.)
I hope D O doesn't get too pissed at me for being gone. (She seems to be getting to like me finally.)-(She was lying on my chest again this morning when I woke up.)
(5pm) Hectic day at work! (Nice!)