People like me (non-union) have had their wages frozen for a long time now. (That breeds a lot of turnover.)-(They think they are saving money with the freeze, but turnover costs usually cost a lot more than the raises would.)
(9pm) I ate four x-tops.
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(2am) I went to the Down Under. (The music and girl watching were a pleasure!) (I did good with keeping my body language open and smiling. (I don't force the smile. I am honestly feeling happy!))-(Still no first moves, but at least I made it out the door!)-(Per normal no one asked me to dance. (Oh well, I had fun dancing with the table.))
Natalie and Grace (another planner I am in lust with) were there. (That brought on a pretty intense anxiety attack; but they ignored me and it passed.) (They were having fun! (Good for them!)) (Grace is close to my age and Natalie is in her mid-20's.)-(Grace is a better dancer!)
My neighbor was there again. (He dances a lot. (Good for him!))
I am watching "Stop making sense" again. (It fits this moment.)
I treated myself to breakfast at 4b's again. (Nice!)
I ended up with $2 left over. (I will need one more loaf of bread to make it to payday, so it worked out perfect.)
I will have to treat D O to some time outside tomorrow. (I got to go out wandering tonite, and she deserves her turn.) (From what the Council minutes say it looks like that may end soon. (They are talking about licensing cats and picking up any they find outside, unless they are on a leash. (I think that is pretty stupid!)))
(3am) Twas sure nice getting out! (I think, in time, I will become more desensitized and people will get used to seeing me around, and there will be more interactions with others. (Tis a slow process though!)-(Patience!))
Maybe I should send Samantha a bus ticket to come over for a visit, or take a trip over to Bozeman, and do some dancing?
Sharon says she doesn't like to dance.
I still think of Carrie when the band plays a slow song. (I still use Paw flashbacks of her, to deal with anxiety attacks. (I worry that I am falling back into the pattern of longing for someone who isn’t here and never will be, but it gets me through the tough moments.))
(9am) I feel good! (Where is the hangover?)
Twas neat to finally get some new snow in town! (We were overdue!) (I wonder if the guys at the Street Department like it as much as I do? (On the one hand they have to go out in the middle of the nite to plow. On the other, it's an opportunity to make some overtime pay.))